Just thought I would share with you my own disquiet about actually writing a novel.
Starting out again?
Maybe it’s just me, the satisfaction from writing short stories is infectious. I have attempted one before, a long time ago – before I abandoned it to write plays, having discovered that using plays to improve my ability to write dialogue was itself a call from the siren.
That novel never saw the light of day. I still have it somewhere. Handwritten and loosely tied together, probably with string. A friend read it but didn’t say very much. Very wise.
What is a novel?
So here I am forty years later revisiting the form. What is a novel? Is it dead? I am enjoying finding out. my theme and characters are working their magic, albeit slowly. I’ve already lost half of it once. That lazy, stupid habit of leaving a laptop on and not saving when you should. Or saving the file but foolishly letting the ones and zeros get corrupted. Luckily, I shared some of it and still had the email.
I started again, as you do. I picked up from where I had got to with the story when I shared it with a close friend, some two months before. Still annoyed with myself. All these years of reminding myself to save my work properly and in multiple places wasted.
And, we’re off!
So, at least I have passed the word count where I thought I had got to originally. But it is still confounding me. This long form danceathon. The story bites though, you’ll be glad to hear. Slowly, I am falling down rabbit holes of desire and injustice. What might not have actually been a novel is slowly proving itself to be that rare chiselled beast of narrative puzzle making. I am more like a sculptor, revealing a story somehow lost inside a vast block of unformed rock.
It’s fun too. Fun to find I am recognising stories that resonate with other people. I am pleasantly surprised. My disquiet about writing a novel should be set aside.
What do you think about the novel? If you have been reading my stories or those by another author, let me know what you think. You’l be glad to hear that the novel I am working on is different in every way, except for one – my love for a great story.
How about you?
What else are you reading at the moment? Feel free to share the books and authors you’ve found to help you, entertain you or inspire you through these dark days as we reel from pandemic and racism and the feeling that something has got to give.